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Kohime: CR update for D.Va.

Moxie: CR for Yugi.

Kohime on D.Va:

C O M P L I C A T E D

She genuinely likes and has affection for her still. But there are a lot of wrinkles there, obviously. She's not and will probably never be okay with open relationships and D.Va's relationship situation is more like the shopping scene at a Walmart on Black Friday. She isn't at all okay that there are others, that there is someone more important than her, and that it's not really clear to her who else there is and if there are new people and how many "friends with benefits" D.Va may have that she's not counting because she doesn't personally rank them on the same emotional level as one of her Important People –– largely because Kohime counts those as relationships, too.

But she likes D.Va as a person, and she desperately wants to be loved, and this is someone that is offering her love -- she does believe that. It's maybe not so helpful for her insecurity issues that when someone finally loves her, a relationship with just her isn't enough, but she wants it so badly that her approach has been to aggressively ignore that it bothers her. D.Va makes her feel physically safe, she does think that she'd back her up in a fight, but where she can't quite trust her is emotionally. She feels like there's a lot D.Va hides from her, and with so many SOs, she just can't believe that if push came to shove D.Va would be there for her. What if it meant choosing between her and one them? Would D.Va choose her? Would she really shield her from HSS when King is there? Etc.

So she throws herself into the fun stuff (because she does like the fun stuff) and pretends to herself and D.Va that the rest isn't an issue (like. probably not very successfully) but there's an underlying tension there, and a lot that could set it off. But despite the mismatch between someone who loves many people and Kohime who devotes herself to one person, she's too selfish to let that love and protection go, and the imbalance in that is eating at her too. In a way, it's kind of the connection between her and Adora all over again.

in summary catras never make the choice that's best for themselves or others the end

Moxie on Yugi:

Moxie is kind of like an excitable small yappy dog. She genuinely enjoys people, and while she doesn't dislike any other units (though tbf she hasn't been through a really rough game that pits them against each other yet), she thinks clearly pep is superior. They're hers and they've been nice and supportive from day one and clearly the best.

Yugi she kind of associates with food in a way? Maybe because they keep meeting in the kitchen while food is being prepared lol. Which sounds funny but is a little bit bigger of a deal to her because her background is "punk street urchin", so housing and food and things like that are a very big deal to her, and where it's provided is associated with security. She thinks he's affable and good natured, and has a hard time imagining he'd have any enemies or be disliked. The kind of person that probably can't quite cut it in the harsh world, so you have to make sure to be tough for 'em so they don't get eaten alive. He's a soft and she'll probably automatically guard dog for him. He's otherwise even-tempered, good-natures, and generally likeable, so she enjoys his company even if he might not be the person she'd go to as an "enforcer" type.

Thoughts on avante so far?

So! Kohime already was fond of Avante. Originally because it was Adora's team, and Adora was her world and she loved her before they had a falling out. Adora had promised to protect her in Imeeji and stab anyone who hurt her, which was pretty great :|a

She uh. Had a bit of a rocky start. She's already a little bit predisposed to being insecure and suspicious and hissy of strangers because catte, but when she first arrived was when Doll randomly and publicly murdered Shu on Taisho, and at the time she'd actually never even met Doll and only knew "oh this crazy murderer has complete access to our dorm and could murder me in my sleep and instead of offering to help me, everyone else hates us and wants us dead in games for it" –– so that connection was comforting!

It was also Gold and Nemesis who came and comforted her after the first time she died (she never gave back Nem's jacket and probably honestly still has it somewhere) and Gold promised to do the best he could to keep Adora's promise even though she was gone, which extended that reassurance. She later sort of stopped trusting Avante would have her back (I think it was a convo with Nemesis that did that), but overall she's always liked them, and while they weren't a team she necessarily trusted to have BiT's backs any more, they were one of the ones she'd rather shield where she could.

BiT was a very political facade, everyone in it for themselves and their own secret motives sort of deal. They looked out for each other because it was in their own interests for the unit to succeed, but except for a few exceptions, it wasn't really a unit that made personal connections. Her home is very similar (only, you know, with the addition of abuse and child soldiering and being an evil invading dictatorship) so she's never really known a friendlier setting. So even if Avante isn't super family team-y like some units, it's still a bit of a jarring adjustment.

It's kind of like being the weird outcast that just crashed a sorority party :|a she really, really wants to fit in and for people to like her, but she has absolutely no idea how to do that and everything is awkward and weird and she wasn't technically actually invited. They don't seem organized or have a chain of command/power structure, which is alien to her, and remind her more of what it might be like if you just stuck the Horde cadets by themselves in a fort and said "ok go defend it". Which honestly suits her just fine because it didn't end up so well for her when BiT had a "leader".

They've been pretty welcoming and accommodating of her, which is something she'd normally just not believe, except most of Avante seems so earnest and straightforward that maybe they actually mean it??? Which was backed up in most of her emotionshare interactions. She's also not sure what to do with them generally –– she comes with a lot of baggage and resentment and has expressed these negative opinions which used to get a reaction somewhere on a spectrum of villainous plotting to ~play the others' guilt and use it to our advantage~ to a straight up echo chamber of that negativity. That's definitely not what she's gotten back from Griffin and others and it's throwing her off a bit.

So basically she's awkward and secretly desperate for them to accept and love her but has absolutely no idea how to behave like an actual person and achieve that.

seconding toni + kohime CR update for both of mine + what would kohime's top pick for a new dorm upgrade be

avante wordsplosion

Moxie doesn't know them so just Kohime:

PALOMA:

She's really struggled with people that put up a fronted persona, and Paloma is no exception. It's a bad combo with her own trust issues, insecurity, belief that everyone has an agenda that doesn't necessarily involve her best interests, and being raised by a terrible momthing who was manipulative and liked to play mindgames. It was compounded by the fact that, to her, the way the Smiling Fakers behaved within BiT was no different than how they behaved with people on other units who openly hated her or BiT, so it became very "How am I different? Just because you say so, it's fake with them, but real for me?"

She's a bad combo of smart, paranoid, and manipulative herself, so she could just never trust Paloma. That's not to say she didn't like her -- she found her intelligent, well-spoken, and interesting, and didn't mind spending time with her. It's just that she never quite made it out of the "potential enemy" camp. Compounding the problem was that she perceived Paloma supported Eichi as "leader", and that was a major sticking point. She loudly and firmly rejected him and felt like it was just ignored and everyone carried on calling him "leader", which led to her deciding she wasn't really part of BiT after all and she started her 1-in-3 day stays.

She was surprised how upset Paloma and the rest of BiT seemed when she transferred -- she had honestly not expected that, and she's kind of swinging between "maybe I had this wrong all along?" and "oh, sure, NOW they care" and while I doubt she's going to go around trusting Paloma with all her deep dark secrets, she wouldn't mind spending time with her going forward.

hey bb

Let's talk about us

okay for real tho

kohime hates sabre

And there's that whole "definitely don't psycho-analyze this shit" aspect, of course, but Sabre just hammers her insecurity and resentment like no one else. As far as she can tell, their lives don't diverge until Thaymor -- so she really can't deal with Sabre without getting this feeling of why her and not me? Her Adora stayed -- and it's not just her Adora, she also perceived her to have a unit that was more protective and around for her, a unit that got off lighter than BiT with the wider Imeeji community, Shadow Weaver picked her and not Sabre when she was here, and so on and so on and it inevitably leaves her wondering what's wrong with her that she can't have any of those nice things. So she's bitter and resentful and does the whole Catra thing, lashing out in anger in the only way she knows how (with ~violence~) and it doesn't take a lot to set her off.

She's trying to prove that she's not the weak or inferior one by beating her, probably because in the Horde and with SW that's what actually did count -- how well you fought and if you had the best times in training and did better in the simulations, etc. etc. Problem now is that Sabre has a mindfuck power and she doesn't! She used to feel like she could sort of nullify that via a Cold War strategy of blocking memories or giving Sabre a solid week of nightmares if she started using visions, but all of avante's powers are physical. And the nightmare vision power is absolutely a dealbreaker with Sabre because she actually knows the right fears to hit, unlike someone who didn't know her.

She's currently trying to figure out how to deal with it -- her only ideas are to sever the avante-zrael connection as best she can (because Sabre said she wanted it, the fool) or maybe go to Ruby or someone and see if she can get another BiT to make sure she has horrendous nightmares for a week, but at present she'd rather avoid it because as much as she would never, ever admit it, she's afraid of getting another vision that she can't defend against.

CR me please!

Moxie loves Cobalt!!!

When I was creating her, I wanted to get into a character who was boastful and overconfident, but not arrogant. I think those things get confused a lot, when they're not really the same at all, as arrogance includes this quality of looking down on others as being less worthy or inferior which the other does not! So Moxie was designed to be the first. She's loud, she's not shy about trumpeting her own qualities (whether they're real or imagined), and she's proud. So Cobalt earned a forever place in her heart when he caught on, early on, that she was pretty much illiterate -- because she didn't have to figure out how to explain it to a bunch of new teammates she wanted to impress, and he reacted so cool about it, like it was nbd here's an app to help you out if you want, Moxie.

But part of it is she's not at all shy about her pride in the accomplishments of those around her either, or the people just for who they are! She honestly loves Pep, and she thinks Cobalt is a steady, solid presence for the unit. He's nice, he's calm, and he seems relatively unfazed, and even she understands that a personality like that is integral for any group.

After his memory she's a little worried that he's not quiet as happy as he always seems –– that he's got troubles or hurts that he's hidden or not addressing. She's not the type to be pushy about things like that, and while she's a bit flighty and doesn't necessarily notice everything going on around her, once she does it's a priority if it involves someone she cares about -- so she'll probably keep a slightly closer eye on him even if she has absolutely no idea what the problem might be or how to fix it.

sobs into my hands

I love Moxie so mu-huh-huch~~

CR me-- thoughts on Lancelot so far?

She's got absolutely no idea what to do with Lancelot. He's just been this perfectly nice, level, accommodating person and she's looking for the angle and can't find it and it's very ????

But weirdly she doesn't want to push it or disregard it because she's feeling pretty awkward and unsettled in Avante, so it's nice and safe to have someone that's hitting just the right level of being friendly without going so far it gets weird or suspicious, and she's pretty content to follow him around. She also has the sneaking suspicion she won't be able to bully him successfully (though she also weirdly things he wouldn't get upset if she tried –– but still not worth the risk).

Gold CR/impressions? Also any thoughts on Silver if any?

ALSO I'M SLOW, Moxie impressions on Shogun?

Edited 2020-05-14 20:51 (UTC)

Gold is the other person she had a sort of pre-fondness for on Avante. Partly because she gets on fine with him -- not that they were ever incredibly close or anything like that, but his attitude suits her so she's never minded talking to him and generally views him as level-headed. But it's largely because way back after the very first time she ever died in Imeeji, he'd come to see her after the game and told her he'd try to uphold Adora's promise to protect her if he could, and it meant a lot to her. Kohime came at a very poor time for BiT -- they were a brand new team no one cared about and Doll did her Very Public Random Murder so they were high on everyone's hit list and responded in kind, and it cemented right out of the gate for her that no one really cared about her or they were willing to write her off as not worth protecting/surviving. So it meant a lot to her that there might be someone out there that wasn't writing her off as worthless, even if it was only to honour a fallen unitmate.

Silver -- to her, he's okay? He's friendly and unobjectionable, but he's always more been Yvette's person than anything else. Yvette isn't someone she ever fully got comfortable with as she constantly cultivates a fake persona and with Kohime's own trust/self-worth issues and a history that gives her tendencies to be suspicious and paranoid, it wasn't always a good mix. So he's okay, but ultimately, he's Yvette's person.

What's some offscreen stuff Moxie gets up to!

Also Pink would have smooshed her with a beanbag while she was flitting around fussing after the flower game, jsyk.

Super belatedly!

Moxie is a busybody, and someone more hands-on and physical than like. Contemplative or interested in books. So she probably explores, but she favours alleys and nooks and crannies and stuff. She'd try out things she's seen other people doing or in games (like if the sports boys were practising, anyone doing parkour, etc.) or playing with her own powers -- I can see her using super speed to see what kind of a distance she can get on a jump for example. She also tinkers with things, curious in how they're put together or work -- maybe only occasionally right now, but whenever I get around to giving her back the right memory and she remembers basically being a mechanic of sorts she'll probably turn her room into a workshop and play around with creating tech stuff.

CR for me, too!

Kohime loves Intensity, probably the most of anyone on another unit (unless, you know, Adora shows up somewhere then all bets are off). It was completely by accident but somehow he became someone she felt she could rely on.

She acts the only way she knows how -- as you know! She grew up in a very difficult and abusive environment where violence and threats were generally the way to accomplish anything (getting your way, protecting yourself, etc.) and mistrust kept you alive. But she often gets a very strong negative reaction from people for it (I mean, understandably), so having someone that seemed to just understand her and roll with her meant a lot to her. So does the automatic pattern they fell into of shielding each other's units -- Kohime is very very convinced that she's virtually on her own (partially because of memory-fed insecurity, partially because BiT just isn't a popular unit -- though things may start changing now) so having one "safe haven", so to speak, having one person that she was able to believe didn't think she wasn't worth saving, but instead someone worth protecting was something she could cling to. His lack of judgement towards her (when she's used to most everyone being very critical of everything she is and does) is a major part of why she connects to him as she does.

She also understands Intensity, since they're fairly similar, so again something that makes sense to her is comforting. He also just seems to get everything right when it comes to her -- from dealing with outbursts to supporting her when she's upset, I don't think he's ever taken a misstep with her. It helped reinforce things when she peaked at her relationship status in his heart, and the end result is she has a complete faith in him that's probably pretty bizarre in someone usually so mistrustful and paranoid.

And Catra is ultimately someone who wants companionship, wants people she cares about and who care about her and wants to be better for them. So she wants to be someone that Intensity can trust, wants to be reliable to him, so she's put him ahead of most things.

That said, if FiN ever killed her, her first assumption would probably be that it was necessary for FiN to survive (as she still expects him to put his own life and those of his unit before all others) and she'd forgive it.

tl;dr he's her favourite person and she probably still leaves cup noodles and random booze (probably from getting someone still on BiT to make it) outside his door.

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